Real-time Chronicles
Follow my real-time journey of trauma recovery, reflections, and personal growth. Discover resilience, insights, and transformative learnings.
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Clinging to a Thread: A Story of Struggle, Recovery, and Stubborn Hope
In the face of recent struggles—navigating depression, anxiety, and life’s curveballs—I’ve encountered challenges, yet they don’t define my darkest days. With each setback, from personal losses to professional standstills, I’ve held onto a thread of stubborn hope, learning more about… Continue reading
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The Weight of Light – a Poem
Gripping play-doh in my hand so tight, shaking and struggling to just sit right, racing heart w/ shallowing breath that might, make me dizzy yet I tell myself it’s alright, was I ever so slightly holding on too tight? was… Continue reading
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Shattered Beliefs: My Path to Healthier Love
In a world where love felt elusive, I clung to relationships that left me questioning my worth. It took shattered beliefs to discover a path toward healthier love. Join me on this transformative journey of self-discovery and newfound wisdom which… Continue reading
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The Light That Lives in Darkness
Contemplating life and its elusive counterpart, death, I grappled with trauma’s unyielding shadows. Death once seemed a sanctuary, an end to fear. Yet, in this introspection, I stumbled upon unexpected insights about darkness and light, hope and despair. This post… Continue reading
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Mending the Sculpture of Self: Piecing Together the Unseen Beauty of a Broken Past
Today, I faced my deepest belief: ‘I am broken’. In therapy, we unraveled my past, my relationship with Kevin, and my PTSD struggles. A childhood photo and my therapist’s words sparked a crucial realization. Am I really just a broken… Continue reading
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Trapped in the Prison of Memories: Navigating a Lifelong Sentence
Trapped within the echoes of my past, I’m suffocated by memories that never seem to fade. Every day, it’s as if I’m serving a lifelong sentence, battling the relentless weight of my history. Loneliness and insecurity have become my companions,… Continue reading
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In the Spirit of Hope: Navigating the Holidays Amidst Challenges
In this holiday season, 7.5 weeks after layoffs, I’ve discovered strength and connection in unexpected places. David, a caring presence in my life, and my ongoing trauma work have shown me the importance of vulnerability. Despite challenges, the holidays have… Continue reading
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Unbroken: A Tale of Fragmentation, Healing, and Self-Value
In the midst of shattered moments and fractured emotions, I embarked on a journey of healing, self-discovery, and the unwavering belief that my value as a person transcends the chaos. ‘Unbroken’ is the story of my battle with fragmentation in… Continue reading
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Ever Been in a Closet?
When I watch movies showcasing the journey of LGBTQ+ individuals, I always felt I related to their journey. Not because I am part of the community, even though I am an ally, but because as a traumatized child I never… Continue reading
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Releasing Attachments: Letting Go with Love
Today, I’m putting pen to paper to free my mind about something I once thought I had a firm grasp on. You see, I’ve always had a deep caring for people, and never wanted them to leave, that might be… Continue reading
Trauma Journey of Anika 